Rest In Peace MK......

Yesterday a good friend of mine died.... It was very sudden and she was only 40 years old.... I have lost a lot of people in my life (mostly family) but, other than relatives, I have never lost someone I was close too and saw/talked too all the time.... I just saw her on Monday night.... We were just texting back & forth to her the night before.... I am so sad that I will never get to see her again.... We would sit and talk and joke and laugh....

She was 8 yrs older than I but, had been married for 20 yrs with a great husband and 2 teenage boys.... I often sought advice from her because she seemed to know a lot and she was willing to share her thoughts/advice.... She was such a nice person and would help anyone who needed it... She was a wonderful Mom and Wife... I hope that if I am fortunate to one day become a Mommy that I can be half as good as she was.... I know her husband and sons will miss her so much and be lost without her....

My husband has known her and her husband a lot longer than I and so we went to the house yesterday to check in on the family, offer our condolences and see if there was anything we could do.... It was just a sad house..... We talked about her and told a few stories but, the whole time I was there I was thinking... I will never be in this house w/ her again.... I am trying to focus today but, it's so hard.... I just keep thinking of my dear friend and how much I miss her already....

After we visited the family, my hubby and I went to our 4th class for the Foster Care/Adoption program... The topic-- Loss and how to help children through it..... I kept thinking how ironic it was that I was trying to keep myself together and all I could think about was my loss that I was coping with that day.... I didn't mention it because I was afraid I would loose it in front of everyone....

Rest In Peace MK-- I miss you so much already! I will never forget you!

2 classes down..... 7 more to go!

We started our foster care/ adoption classes last week (1/7/09)... The first one was an introductory class..... Last night was class #2.... We talked about and received our paper work to start working on..... Looking at that packet, I got goose bumps.... This is really happening! We are getting closer and closer to realizing our dream of becoming parents! It's a lot of work and getting things together but, as I told my husband last night after class when he said 'It's a lot to do'.... 'It will be worth it!' and he agreed.

So, I think I will take it step by step and try not to get too over whelmed with the process.... Some of it like the application and financial stuff is lengthy but, others are simple and just need a signature or are copies of items (such as driver's licenses, marriage certificate and insurance verification)

Up to now I have felt like we were taking 'baby steps' in this process..... Last night I feel like we took a big step by receiving this packet to start filling out..... We are on our way now!

2009 already?

2009 has begun... Ok, so it began almost a week ago and I am a little bit late writing this! I feel like 2009 could finally be our year.... In 2009 we will:

1) Celebrate 10 yrs being together.
2) Celebrate 5 yrs being married.
3) Become licensed as Foster care/ Adoptive parents

I hope 2009 will bring us meeting our future child..... We started our classes tonight.... It will be a few months until we are licensed completely (the classes are 9 weeks themselves) but, I feel so positive about this....

My moto for this year....

Hoping 2009 brings dreams coming true!

I sure hope it proves to be right! Happy belated New Year my family and friends..... May all your dreams come true this year too!