Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Almost Christmas......

This past Sunday my family came down to our house to celebrate Christmas.... It was the first time we hosted Chistmas at our house.... Tom and I did a lot to prepare last week and my sister Kerri (who lives with us and is going to college down here) helped quite a bit too....

Sunday was a success.... Everyone had a good time and said the food was delicious too! While standing there with my family around I couldn't help to reflect that hopefully next year we will be celebrating our 1st Christmas with a child in our home... One that will eventually be ours forever....

I am hoping this is our last 'Childless' Christmas and look forward to seeing the wonder in their eyes on Christmas morning.....

I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Count down to classes is on!

Last night my husband & I attended an information session for the Foster Care -Adoption classes for our county that we have to take.... They are held on Wednesday evening starting January 7th for 9 weeks....

After the holidays are over our life will be filled with classes, interviews, homestudies, inspections, finger printing and paper work.... but, at the end we will be ready for when a placement becomes available.....

So, the count down is on..... 20 days til classes start and counting!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

A friend of a friend.......

The other week my hubby and I went to our friend's house for dinner and told them of our plans to not proceed with any more fertility treatments and look into foster care- adoption. It so happens that a friend of theirs has been going through the same program in our county.

My friend contacted her friend and forwarded her e-mail address to me. I contacted her and she has given me some very good information as to how to get started with this process... She seems very glad to help and answer any questions we may have. It's so nice to 'talk' to someone who has been through it (and in my area too!).....

The first piece of advice she gave me was to sign up for PRIDE classes (not sure yet what they stand for) and to get a good caseworker. She recommended her's and per my request forwarded our information to him. I had not heard from him and it's been almost a week, so today I called him. He referred me to the recruiter who I had to leave a message for.... Her message said a packet will be sent out....

So, now I guess I just wait for that and see what it has for us! I am used to waiting although I am not a real patient person.... But, I will wait for this packet...... Glad I called now instead of waiting until January.....

I guess that is what you call taking 'baby steps'.....

Monday, December 1, 2008

Being Thankful......

Last week was Thanksgiving.... I had a much needed long weekend.... I spent some time at home alone, relaxing (my hubby was deer hunting part of the weekend) and I tried to reflect on the 'good' and not the 'bad' in our lives....

I am first of all thankful for my husband.... He is supportive, loving and most of all my best friend.... We have been through a lot together in the past 9 yrs of being together and 4 yrs of being married.... We get through it but, sometimes we have some bumps along the way.... He has been my rock through this whole TTC ordeal.... He has been there to hold me when I cry or listens when I am angry because we did not succeed in getting pregnant again! He has given me shot after shot and still 'grieved' with me when the IVF's have failed..... He is my everything....

I am thankful for the rest of my family (both near and far) and even for those who aren't with us anymore for being a part of my life....

I am thankful for my friends.... My longtime friends that have been through thick and thin with me and my BBC girls who 'listen' to all my hopeful expectations and comfort me when I fall..... Sometimes I don't know where I would be with out this group of ladies......

And, in this economic time I am also thankful for my job.... I have a good job that I enjoy!

As much as I am thankful for all that I have..... I want more.... I want to be a 'Mommy' to more than my cats (although I love them like they are my children!).... I just feel like I have more love to share......

Tom and I decided to wait until January to start the next steps in our process.... I love the holidays.... But, this year I am anxious to get the holidays over with so Tom & I can start on our new journey to hopefully find a child that will one day be ours!